Just the Beginning

So the theme this year at ACF goes back to the basics: love.  That's great cause basic is exactly what I need.  (I think I made an unintentional pun there).

It was surprising to see a lot of old faces visiting.  And I lucked out on the blanket game, getting someone I know already.

But there's the realization that there is a lot of history I'm walking in to - a history that I was largely absent from because of my... I'll just say... old narrow ways.  The old faces know me and I know them but aside from that, in the moment of meeting eyes, there's a mutual realization that there is not much to say but the emptiness of what could've been way back then.

It does not mean I'll just dive headlong in to this.  I know my place and it's important to be real and honest and respect boundaries.

Game?  Well, I learned I can't play two games at once well and one is more important than the other to me, which makes it so much easier on me.  It saves me the time of sifting through annoying mind games to see who is being real and who just "likes the attention".  Though, I have learned from merely being at the right place at the right time and saying the right things, that anything can happen.  Regardless, it remains not my main focus cause I still have the luxury of time.

All in all, right now I'm comfortable with going at my own pace and finding my own way.

"I sent you a car, a boat, and a helicopter." - that story really described a lot so thanks for that.

And the final message from Bruce Almighty, "Be the miracle."