Look Me In the Eye

"Look me in the eye.  It's okay if you're scared.  So am I.  But we're scared for different reasons.  I'm scared of what I won't become and you're scared of what I could become.  Look at me.  I won't let myself end where I started.  I won't let myself finish where I began.  I know what is within me even if you can't see it yet.  Look me in the eyes.  I have something more important than courage.  I have patience.

I will become what I know I am."

-Michael Jordan

Newbies: I'm sorry if I scare you.  Don't be so intimidated by what you see in my eyes cause this describes what I am feeling.

I hate the distance - both physically and emotionally.  But I have accepted this is my trial, my challenge, and a part of my life where I must find myself and reach a higher level of maturity - a stage of becoming with my next stage just around the corner.

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I don't know if you or any of my cohort - my generation - will be the one.  I don't think it is likely with all the things needed in place before such a long-term commitment will work well.  It would be ridiculous to expect any kind of waiting with the hand that has been dealt to me by Him or by fate or by whoever or whatever you like to believe.  But I am not the kind that closes doors prematurely and unilaterally.  I like to leave things open to any sort of possibility.

Though, for the time being, I apologize if I appear to be a blind and oblivious fool.  Or I am "too focused".  It's complicated (and maybe it really isn't!).  Howeverrrrrrr, I'm beginning to think that "sort of thing" might do me some good.  Or not.  Who knows?  Haha.