The Lululemon Bag

One quote on it stood out,

"The pursuit of happiness is the source of all unhappiness."

I refuse to take part in this tiring rat race with no meaningful end.  I see now it's simply one thing leading to another ad infinitum. Most of the women seem to ask of me to have some really long-term plan and certainty of the future.  Or expect to have long-term security through their man.  The recent recession has proved otherwise; there is no such thing.  To base a relationship on that, well, I am sorry but that is a disaster waiting to happen down the line.

Also, it's that time of year again, where the usual questions about the future are asked.  I don't particular enjoy reliving this moment for the second time; but it happens nonetheless.  The dislike comes mainly from the subtle expectation to have a detailed answer.

Not having a concrete answer ready and the uncertainty of the future used to scare me but now, not really.  From my experience, thinking and planning far into the future has been a futile exercise; things never turn out the way you expect them to.  (Think "Reality vs. Expectations" scene in (500) Days of Summer)

I realize now I have let my mind create unrealistic constructs and expectations on where I should be and let my heart turn cold, neglecting a lot of things important in life.  Important things that belong in the realm of the heart and not of the overly rational mind.  (To quote Jerry Maguire, "No heart!")  Id est, I have been doing things with no heart and only cause I thought it was expected of me.  Too much ambition and expectations it seems.

So, as I move forward and patiently and sincerely fill out applications with complete disregard to early deadlines, I will do what I feel most comfortable with: going with the flow, letting whatever happen happen, and adapting as necessary.  To quote Bruce Lee, "Be like water."

I realize I am no shark after all.  But I am no swan yet either.  (Up in the Air reference).  Nonetheless, I want to be part of the latter - content with living modestly and comfortably with people all around.

"It's just a moment.  This time will pass." -U2 - Stuck in a Moment You Can't Get Out Of